Darker than Ever

It is a somber time for me....

I am frozen as I consider the days to come. The Holidays have become commercial and vacant and I am lost in thought trying to pull myself from it. To reach outside of myself and recapture the joy of the season. There is nothing.. it is empty. If I had Money I am sure I could drug myself with shopping and packages so that I do not feel anything.

Am I sad... actually No..
The real truth is I just don't feel it.. I am mind numb to the trappings of the season.

 I tend to get gifts as I  can and with no true direction .. chaotic and beautiful with no rhyme nor reason . I don't like the commitment of having to return the favor of gifting or buying something for you because you got something for me.  As a matter of fact if I have thought of you and found something that I can afford  I don't expect a gift in return. If I give a gift it is truly a gift not a point scored... I give because I can.  And if I cant give a gift and you resent that.... then... I feel sorry for your pain but I will not make it right and live up to your unrealistic expectations. If I was wealthy  I would shower people with odds and ends of thoughtfulness.

I am not... so I do what I can without the help of money... and yet again this time comes round and I hold my breath..... Holding .. holding holding.... until I can exhale again...

 I fall for the darker side of the Holidays... the basic and barren.. somehow I find it extremely beautiful  the light that brightens the darkness..  it makes me feel alive.
I am happy.... and I find that extremely odd... how I find beauty in shadows... And how the one joy I find in the holidays is the illumination. The light in the dark... the spark in someones eye. The joy deep within that shines on the dullest day.

DEATH ROW DESIGNS -  Legpouch - fully loaded GACHA ARCADE RARE

Christmas .. is the celebration of the baby Jesus and it has split itself like a pregnant belly spilling out guts gore and deep inside the mess you find life.... fighting to breath amongst the pain..... and death of an idea that has become perverse...

I look past it all with eyes filled with magic and seek the illumination.


Just so you know... Poses are often the forgotten thing to mention during a blog and these fab poses are brought  to you by.. DIESEL WORKS .. I have often used his poses for my blogs and will continue to do so because there is always a sense of art and sexy...  Also of note is he has great male poses and couple poses...

For years I have been blogging Gos shoes from the playful looks to the elegant. Yet again I find his shoes to be in my favorites. And I always need the fat-pack. But now that he has the Color+ system you can add each shoe to the color pallet and make your signature look and color splash.. Today.. I am fully defined by Black.. thanks yet again GOS for some fabulously fitting shoes with impeccable skin color matching

May you find the light in your holidays... and forget the trappings of false giftwrap.. Wrap yourself in the arms of your beloved and breath.. and if you have no one then wrap your own arms about yourself and sigh  as you look to the stars... and Live for whats real.

eXxEsS : LADA - Hair
 EPIC *Epic Boobies* Slasher Suit
[Gos] Bordello - Bonnie - Collection
*HolliPocket* Holy Holly Garter
Izzie's - Leather Belt black  *older item* available in store
Izzie's - Bow Waist Belt black *older item* available in store
RO - Remarkable Oblivion - Bullet F****** Belt *available in main store location*
RO - Remarkable Oblivion - Paragon Cap - Forever Black
drd -  Death Row Designs -  Armor - bluemetal
Diesel Works - Erotique Female Poses
*MUKA* Garter Love -(PhatAzz) *2nd post on it because its matchy & colorchangable*
DEATH ROW DESIGNS -  Legpouch - fully loaded GACHA ARCADE RARE

[Gos] Bordello - Bonnie - Collection

COMING SOON - SQUISHY POLKADOTS - *?????To be named?????* - KneePads

DEATH ROW DESIGNS -  Legpouch - fully loaded GACHA ARCADE RARE

Muted Pink and my softer side

 * .:: deeR ::. * Dress

Yes I am wearing this dress over my phat azz.. with minimal peekaboo a total plus.
It has two huds available with this lovely dress I adore the high low skirt.. its classy and sophisticated yet sexy.. and Oh make sure you wear panties... it will flash your coochie coo unless your naughty and like that sort of thing.. Or one of them shemale who let your peen dingle dangle. I have to admit its a perfect dress for that kinda naughty!
Me I wore panties.. to keep my virtue in tact.. but honestly the dress is amaze  I love the combo of gold and or silver buckles and belts and the best thing about DEER dresses is the Lola hud is built right into the main hud.. ANYTHING to make life simpler. Makes me Happy.

Toxic Bish - Photo Realistic Teeth

You will be seeing more of Toxic Bish Items..   a shop worth checking out for the little things that make your avi special. the sexy sneer is perfect for you smokers out there or just us gals with attitude.. It features a color gem you can change to suit your colorscheme

 eXxEsS Hair

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 GOS SHOES

Gos Dita Bordello available only at Shoetopia on Sim 2 until November 30th.

 IZZIES

Comes in so many cute colors..

One of the best things to happen in a while .. is my Lolas now have a hud that makes it super simple to wear tats and clothing layers.. it used to be a little bit of work but now even the slowest newb can handle these fabulous Boobies.. So for those of you who didn't try Lolas because it was too complicated..  the newest release and updated Lola Tangos are for you... No reason not to have them now..  its a click away to perfection...

*Fishy Strawberry* Faux Fur Stole - Pink

 Remarkable Oblivion Philippine Bracelet

[geek.] knuckle ring

 Endless Pain Tattoos

Shogun Tat comes has Phat Azz and Lola Appliers available for purchase

 Deer in store display

 *Fishy Strawberry* Faux Fur Stole - Pink
IZZIE'S - Mesh Earmuffs pink
IZZIE'S - Katya Skin pale
Toxic Bish - Photo Realistic Teeth
* .:: deeR ::. * ~Lolas~ High/low dress
[geek.] Rock-A-Knucks -Cherry-
eXxEsS : NYJA
Lolas :::Tango ::: Updated Version
MG Maxi Gossamer - Necklace - Clockwork Steampunk Heart - Short Version - GOLD
RO Remarkable Oblivion - Philippines Relief Bracelet
Endless Pain Tattoos  - Shogun
*MUKA* Garter Love
GOS Bordello - Dita - shoes

Uhh RO I run with scissors

And now you can too!!

at Remarkable Oblivion

RO - Remarkable Oblivion - Scissorhands *new*

HOC Industries - Pleated Skirt  - hud controlled for texture change

Sometimes I cut myself.... but I look fabulous... and an artistic choice..
So many people commented on these when I was running around and it frightened off a few huge New York Thug types...  who usually grief but  the scissorhands put them off me just enough for them to respect the word no... * no honestly they were fun and playful fellows.. who love bewbies

the hair I wear
eXxEsS : PERUN in fox texture

 FuK'N'HawT  Net Top  worn over HolliPockets  Cherry Kini

RO - Remarkable Oblivion -  Amped Earphones

RO - Remarkable Oblivion - Sanctus Earrings

[nn] - Dark Titanium lip piercing- doll

it also includes the eyebrow piercing to match.. color change ring and bow

And the beautiful skin I am in.. is

Izzie's - Holly Camo Eyeshadow brown and Holly Skin sunkissed

Singing in the rain... Ro Ro Ro your boat...

RO - Remarkable Oblivian


Sometimes we just find a great place....

My friends and I seem to buy any and everything we can get our hands on as it comes out. I mean all of us wait for every single release because its just that good.  Needless to say we are big fans. And there are not a lot of shops that we will return to over and over again. I only wish they had more releases they could keep my Friends and I broke and I am hoping you too...

RO - Remarkable Oblivian

This merchants work hard for some amazing quality.   When I Msged them they both were friendly and  you get great customer service,  and that is always an added feature to keep me returning to a shop in Secondlife.. I like to feel like a diva and be treated well. The good thing and something not everyone knows except there regular customers is that if your in there group  they tend to toss special unadvertised surprises to there loyal customers. So joining there group is a plus and worth a slot.

RO - Elysium - Black *ear wings*

Skin I am in.... is... the beautiful Mocha shade of
Izzie's - Elena
And.. Lola appliers are available for Izzie skins...

Elysium Ear wings.. including the Hyppograph

I love these....

Older but very cool ring from RO - Remarkable Oblivian called oculus

 Bewbs in space!

 *HolliPocket* String Kini-Black with Lola Appliers..

*T.Whore*- Vintage Jeans Leo

eXxEsS : KOSTROMA chestnut

1NNOVAT1ON Design house .: SUPERBIA :. shoes  or here at  Marketplace

 *HolliPocket* String Kini-Black with Lola Appliers..

OMG..... Puppy Love... at my age? Yup!!!

Puppy love this week I am getting all my family to buy one!
Tell them Whisper sent ya!

 +Half-Deer+ Keyhole Tattoo worn with  (r)M - (red)Mint~ Posture Collar ~ No.03

**SHINE** Oggy Smokey/UltraPale *New*
worn with eye makeup from Corvus
Corvus : Evil Eye Makeup

[Manticore] Puppy v3  and my hair is eXxEsS : WENDA -  blue-black *new*

I was out at a club... and saw this adorable puppy dogeee.. The chic was dancing and this little jack Russel was just wagging happily as she danced around him.. then I realized  he was an attachment so you can take him to no rez zones .... My heart went Aweeeeeee so many times it was annoying me..

He may not seem like much in these pics, it was difficult to capture his beauty.. but  he is mesh and fully animated.. wiggling and waggling his way into your heart. Panting and just cuteness that is a must see .

Now seriously if you have forgotten your love on Valentines day.. and you wanna make up for being a douche... or your looking for a rez gift.. or an I lovers you so much gifty.. or if you broke up with your SL partner and need a Dog or bitch replacement to fill in that empty  spot..or if you just love yourself and are feeling lonely.

You really have to find a reason to get this adorable pup.. he is the cutest Beast ever.. and you do wqnt him I an tell..Good news is  He isn't 2k!  he is cheep cheep 600L  You can attempt to get him in a gatcha for 300L if you dont mind random.. you may get an awesome frog or a kitty or a baby chic...  You do not have to feed him...  Just snuggles and hugs and  take him shopping with you or out to the club.. He will follow you anywhere.

The belt also comes with lots of texture options... You can always go the the Deer webpage for more looks at options and the page is just so cool ...

I have not found a shop exactly for these awesome shoes just a platform with two styles.. Culprit heels come with a hud of 10 textures and colors.. maybe 12 but I am too lazy to look again.

All I can say is I love him and  he is a great dance partner... even though he just watches and doesn't dance he sort of just wags his tail and wiggles..  he is a must see to believe how friggin cute he is..

Corvus : Evil Eye Makeup and my Hair is...Tameless Eva - Fades *new release* 2/21/13

[Manticore] Puppy v3
Corvus : Smile! Shirt *new*
Corvus : Evil Eye Makeup
 Tameless Eva - Fades *new release* 2/21/13
* .:: deeR ::. * MESH flair pants *new release*
**SHINE** Oggy Smokey/UltraPale *New*
 (r)M - (red)Mint~ Posture Collar ~ No.03
~S.N.G~ Checkered Yellow finger nails * older item*
 +Half-Deer+ Keyhole Tattoo
 [MANDALA]Onigiri earrings/Charcoal
 [Cliche] Culprit Shoes *New Release* Fatpack 599L